Strength.

2 Corinthians 12:9-10
And He said to me: "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

So I have this like, giant string of songs that I really want to blog about, but I don't want to bore you by posting endless lyrics and embedding youtube videos. Alas, I'm not quite sure how else to do it, so here we are.

This song is called "I'm not Alright" by Sanctus Real.

Originally I thought it was going to be one of those depressing screamo-ish sort of "my life is miserable" sort of songs, because it started out that way. But in the end I fell in love with it, because it's not like that at all.

Favorite lyrics:

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth I need to confess
Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
'til everything I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on.

'Cause honestly, I'm not that strong.

Just that...I try so hard. I want so much to look good to people...to model Christianity and get it right. I mean, God is truth, and I gotta show 'em that I'm right, you know?

But honestly, I'm not that strong.

I think I'm so great, that I'm so awesome and important. But I'm not - only God is. Oh, doesn't it make you shudder? Just the thrill that God is so much greater than me. Bigger than me. Stronger, more powerful, more perfect, holy, and righteous. He's God.

Second favorite part of this song: All the time it's talking about how our imperfection leads us to Christ. And it ended so absolutely perfectly: That's why I need You.



If weakness is a wound that no one wants to speak of
Then "cool" is just how far we have to fall
And I am not immune, I only want to be loved
But I feel safe behind the firewall

Can I lose my need to impress?
If you want the truth I need to confess

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside, broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You, it leads me to You

Burn away the pride
Bring me to my weakness
'til everything I hide behind is gone
And when I'm open wide with nothing left to cling to
Only You are there to lead me on.

'Cause honestly, I'm not that strong.

I'm not alright, I'm broken inside
Broken inside
And all I go through, it leads me to You
It leads me to You

And I'll move,
and I'll move,
and I'll move,
Closer to You

I'm not alright I'm broken inside
Broken inside
I'm broken inside, Broken inside
And all I go through leads me to You
Leads me to You

I'm not alright, I'm not alright
I'm not alright.

...that's why I need You.