This is how I feel right now...

If you can't read what the book says, it's "Chinese." And yes, I have been studying it for the past hour, and yes, this picture is from my book.

学 中 文 。

These are the kind of things going through my head right now. It's like a song you only know part of the words for.

您好！

我是美国人。

中国是很美。

我喜欢喝咖啡。

你喜欢茶吗？

我的中文不好。


I can read, write, and pronounce all of that. Without Google Translate. What I'm really proud of, however, is that I have sort of started thinking in Chinese. Little itty bitty phrases, like please, thank you, goodbye, and my name is.....

It's cool.

再见！

Live What I am Dreaming of

Yeah, I'm posting another Trading Yesterday song.

Yes, I just posted about them last time. But I had to share with you another awesome song.

See, a lot of my life recently has been along the lines of:

School planning
Debate about economic security vs. personal freedom
School planning
Debate about economic security vs. personal freedom
Wonder what in the world God is doing with my life
School planning vs. personal freedom
Wonder what God's will is for my life
Debate about economic security
School planning
Wonder about what God is doing with my life
School planning

....you get the idea. It's rigid, kind of intense, and full of all the kind of structure and organisation that I kind of enjoy. (not the stress, the organisation)

But even us non-free-spirited people who love organisation feel a little stuffy at times, and especially after having a deep conversation with your father and brother about personal freedom vs. economic security, long conversations with your mother about school schedules, and long conversations with God about what is going on in your life.....yeah never mind.

(your brain quits working, that's what)

Also what happens after you read books like "Just Do Something" by Kevin DeYoung. (more about that later, I think)

It's like that excitement you get when you start to feel that all that rigidity and organisation and stuff might be paying off, but it hasn't actually happened yet so you aren't sure.

It sparks something. I'm not sure what, because it's too late in the night. But it's in this song. So if you want to know, listen to it. That is, if the above even made sense to you. Which it quite possibly didn't. I'll never know unless you comment.



I'm taking my chances as I go // Life is more than just survival // Love will be the thing that sets me free // Just a little faith is all I need // To live what I am dreaming of.

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This is a [slightly] random post because 1) I feel like posting, 2) I feel like posting, and 3)...yeah. never mind.

My mind is, for once, refusing to cooperate into logical organization and putting things into lists, boxes, and nice little orderly thoughts.

Not like this is a strange occurrence, but I suppose it would be one of the first where I dare to make blog posts while in such a condition.

Normally I don't even touch blogger.

I'm not even sure why I'm posting.

Because I feel like it. And I'm feeling so spontaneous because......

hm. Not sure. Anyway. I could use prayer, because there are a lot of decisions I have to make and things I have to get done and to throw everything off there's something elllllse that just doesn't make life easy. You know? Those types of things. And a lot of other random things that are the kind of thing that you can't be indifferent about. Or middle ground about. Or two sided about. Where you have to pick a side. And I don't know which side to pick. Which is frustrating.

ALSO! You should see Dawn Treader.

AND.....don't see any other movies in theatres, because they're not worth it. No, really, I have looked at the current playing movies. They're all kind of trashy. At least compared to VDT. :)

I'd better hit publish before I say too much more that's overly strange. =P