More grace?

I find myself repeatedly saying to God - "God, can I have a little more grace this time? If you just give me grace on this...I should be good for awhile."

What?!

Sometimes I wonder how God could love me, which such wretched thoughts that go on in my mind.

I don't just need God's grace for certain things and then I'm "good for awhile". Eesh. Where did you get that idea, Hannah?

I need to live daily by His grace.

I have been crucified with Christ, it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. And the life which I now live in the flesh, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me. I do not set aside the grace of God, for if righteousness comes through the law, then Christ died in vain. [Galatians 2:20-21]

For he who has died has been freed from sin. Now if we died with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with Him, knowing that Christ, having been raised from the dead, dies no more. Death no longer has dominion over Him. for the death that He died, He died to sin once for all; but the life that He lives, He lives to God. Likewise you also, reckon yourselves to be dead indeed to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Therefore, do not let sin reign in your mortal body,, that you should obey it in its lusts. and do not present your members as instruments of unrighteousness to sin, but present yourselves to God as being alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness to God. For sin shall not have dominion over you, for you are not under law but under grace!

What then? Sheall we sin because we are not under law but under grace? Certainly not. Do you not know that to whom you present yourselves slaves to obey, you are that one's slaves whom you obey, whether of sin leading to death or of obedience leading to righteousness? But God be thanked that though you were slaves of sin, yet you obeyed form the heart that form of doctrine to which you were delivered. [Romans 6:7-17]