There comes a day when, you look at your life and realize you
are in that place, that time frame that everyone reminisces about when
they are 30. You're no longer "too young" to live alone or have a
boyfriend -- because right
now, you are living those precious
days that shape the rest of your future, forever. It's when you're young
enough to do stupid things, but old enough to make it happen on your
own. It's when life begins to change in ways you never thought it would
-- not drastically, not tragically, neither for the worse or for the
better -- just change. When you realize you are growing up, not in that
way of turning 12 and being allowed to stay home by yourself, or turning
16 and being able to drive. It's your person, it's your being, it is
struggling to free itself into the new world of adulthood without losing
the joys of childhood. When you realize that your parents' stories of
"we met freshman year" and "that's when I decided to major in history"
is the timeframe of life that you are living right
now. There
is so much at stake, so much that could change at each move -- yet to
recoil and hide in fear would be detrimental. You have to fight for what
you want, risk failing at it, you have to be able to be in wonder, to
be vulnerable, like when you were 12 -- but to respond to it with a
heart and soul that has been molded by time. You have to move forward,
you have to take a deep breath and cling to the people you love, who
love you back, to what little truth you know, because the world is dark,
and light is precious.